Sweet Childhood
Every once in a while, I
like to flip through old photo albums and watch those poor quality videos of my
toddler self. It's quite an emotional experience.
Some of it is
hilarious-Ridiculous dancing to the wind, staring at the ground in betrayal
because it didn't cushion me when I landed on it, hiding all the return
gifts because I didn't want to give those shiny purses away. (I look like an
evil goblin in that picture)
There's one video where my
hand is fractured. My mom is talking about how she's worried that my
grandparents would be saddened if they knew. Little Priya then came
up with a scheme.
"Let's lie to them,
then. We'll say that we are having a blast, there are no injuries, we are
eating cake," I say, my voice swaying. "So they'll feel happy and we
will suffer in secret," I declare with the most pained expression a child
can have.
How did my young mind
come up with such ideas?
These captured memories
make me teary too. It's bittersweet for all of us to look back on the
distant past. Our present selves hold the knowledge of how everything played
out and that tiny body seems so happily unaware.
Those days were
blissful, weren't they? When we felt pure joy because we took life as it was.
Our thirsty minds quickly drank up the world around us. Each discovery was
exciting. I still remember standing in the balcony with my grandfather on a
rainy night, in complete awe as he explained the water cycle to me.
Another favourite of mine
is being told bed time stories. I'd get all cozy in my bed, cuddled up to a
doll or two. Then my mom or grandmother would gently take me through a story.
They were cute tales involving domestic animals and warmly lit homes.
Soon my eyes would get heavy, and I'd fall asleep with a small smile.
Our families created a
cocoon of comfort for us. The sense of safety we still feel on looking back is
all because of them. It's such an immense blessing to be born into the world
and be wrapped with so much love. I don't mean to say it has been all rosy and
perfect. Rather, they've been there holding our hands all through the rough
road. And that is one of the biggest reasons to feel thankful.
So when I found myself
mildly saddened to have grown up, I told myself that the sunnier side to this
is appreciating the lovely days I've had and continue to receive. In
fact, I can always choose to embody all those things I love about my kid self.
The innocence, the zest for life, the playfulness and ability to have fun.
Maybe I'll even bring back the adorable pigtails.
Might as well love life
right now. Someday, this will turn into the memories that bubble up when
our future selves reminisce about the good old days.
Very nice
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